Have you ever felt as if you have done everything according to the book and yet things do not work out as expected? I have and am currently in that situation.
On one hand, it is very difficult to accept that all your efforts have been in vain while things go well for those that did not care about doing anything right. I have been a practising Christian for more than half my life and one particular issue seems to have eluded me more than any other. I lived my life according to the Bible in that area but things have not worked well at all. It has been very painful and I have felt really disappointed with God for not coming through for me and myself for trusting Him instead of doing things my own way. A Christian friend, Michelle, was not as God fearing in this area (her stories have revealed quite a lot) and yet things worked well for her. Did I think that this was fair? Of course not!!
On the other hand, there is one particular area in which I have not done much about improving myself but for some reason, I have prospered in it. Michelle has worked very hard in this area and yet things have not worked for her. Interestingly, I rarely think that it is unfair for me to get blessed when I have not done anything much to deserve a good thing. Is this being selfish or ungrateful.
The one way I have come to cope with the disappointment in this one aspect of my life is to take a bird’s eye view of my life. I count the blessings I have had and they certainly outnumber the disappointments. Life may not be fair, but I have had a fair share of good fortune. God may seem as if He has forsaken me in one area, but I have been blessed beyond measure in more spheres of my life.
I will continue to be grateful for the blessings/good fortune (whatever you call it) I have had in spite of some disappointments. What is the use of being bitter when I can instead be grateful for the blessings I have? I am not saying that it is easy to be grateful through dark times, but what else is there to hold on to? I have chosen to live a life of gratitude even though it is difficult at times. The results are much better than leading a bitter life.